My Journey through darkness and healing

My Journey through darkness and healing

30 Dec. 2024

R.R | Corporate Employee, Mumbai

Hello Mindville squad!

My struggle with mental health started in 2021 when the work environment I was in became toxic. It left me vulnerable, and to make things harder, I fell deeply in love with someone.

Unfortunately, the relationship ended abruptly, leaving me devastated.

In 2022, after over 15 years of hard work, I received a letter of insubordination at work. This triggered severe anxiety, which coupled with my existing depression, made it difficult to function. As if this wasn’t enough, my father suffered a stroke in mid-2022.

Watching him go through that was heart-wrenching and completely broke me. I began emotionally eating, and within a few months, I gained over 15 kgs. I was on medication for both depression and anxiety, seeing a psychiatrist and undergoing therapy. It felt like every part of my life—work, home, relationships—was falling apart. I lost interest in everything I once enjoyed, and I isolated myself, sinking deeper into a dark place.

What helped me find my way back was a somatic practitioner. He taught me the importance of leaving things "as is." His approach helped me reset my nervous system and slowly climb out of my depressive phase. I began to think of life in terms of "Just be" and "as is," embracing acceptance and acknowledgment. Meditation became a key part of my healing.

I learned that I cannot control things that are beyond my control, and that realization brought a sense of peace.

Today, I share the lessons I’ve learned with my friends and others who might be struggling. I hold space for their feelings and keep them in my constant prayers to the universe.

A song that kept me going : "Fix You" by Coldplay
(The lyrics resonated with my pain but also gave me hope.)

A phrase that helped me : “Just Be in the Moment”
(It helped me stay grounded & gave me the strength to endure tough moments, knowing they were temporary. )

An advice to ease your mental health journey: “Accept things as they are, and to just be in the moment.”

Helping you,
Be You.

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